Crossroads

Here I am at another turning point, another fork in the road, another place where the roads cross. At 26 years old I have obviously been here before. Been in a place where the next decision I make, or don't make, will change my life forever, for better or for worse.

So what is so different about this time? This time I am sharing my journey...with my one year old son.

This is what makes me hesitate. This is what makes me pause, and think. In the past I made important decisions on the fly, from the seat of my pants, and often on the solidarity of a whim! I rebelled boldly and often and could ease any worries with the thoughts: "I am only hurting myself" or "this is my life and I shall do as I please".

But now there is no Rebekah that exists as a seperate entity from Logan.

He is my all, my everything. I would give my life a thousand times over for him, and I will certainly live this one life differently because of him.

So there will be no more leaping before I look, no forging ahead on a path to nowhere, and no "maybe it will get better" excuses for empty relationships.

Will I ever be enough? No, absolutely not. But nothing will keep me from trying!

This is our life. My life, my son's life. Our life together. This is what my blog is about. Us. Our happiness, our trials, our love, and our sadness. Simply. Wonderfully. Us.